On the farm I intern with 4 beautiful, talented women, and I find myself constantly jealous of their beautiful bodies. This sinful attitude is tangled up in my own sinful focus on my own body- on the way it ‘should look’ and the way clothes fit on it. The crazy thing is- I KNOW that I am beautiful. I KNOW that God gave me an amazing body that serves him in just the right way- swimming, biking, hiking, farming, walking- I have done all of these for His glory.
So what’s the deal? I don’t really know, I just want peace. God loves me, and He uses the weakest, plainest, most broken people to bring Him glory. I certainly take pride in the fact that I am not enough- I will never be
fast enough, strong enough, smart enough, thin enough, creative enough, likeable enough, outgoing enough, etc.
What I WILL BE is all those things in Christ. Perhaps the answer to my body-hate is to love Christ so much that I cannot hate His creation, my body.
He has given me tools to squish Satan’s lies in my heart. I don’t read magazines anymore- they’re much more destructive than they’re worth! Also, I found this really great website that shows real women’s bodies, and the infinite variety. There is something to celebrate in all of us! The website is below.